I received this note from one of our therapist and wanted to share it with you all. This is a self-explanatory session, and it is what Primal Therapy is about.
We started the session by the patient saying that he felt like something was preventing him from applying the business ideas he had had recently.
I will make it short, but at some point between talking and crying he said “Around me there is plenty of what I want but I can’t get it.” Then he cried about how he was actually feeling OK inside as a child but his parents constantly diverted him from this feeling by repeatedly asking him to do things he didn’t want to do. After crying about this for a while this is what he said:
“But I am OK, I feel good, I feel sweet, soft, gentle inside. I am fine. I am OK the way I am. In adult words, it means I am rooted, I am stable. We are all looking for what we already have inside. Satisfied or dissatisfied doesn’t mean anything. I just feel OK. It is a normal feeling, not an ecstatic feeling, only an ordinary normal feeling and it’s enough. I don’t need understanding because I am understanding myself. I don’t need anything, I am OK. This is so incredible!”
There is more, and he spent most of the session exploring and feeling that deep yet normal feeling of simply being OK.
Wow, it was incredible for me too!!!!
But my need of love from my dad is a ghost like an empty hole of pain!
ReplyDeleteYes... I remember a student who lived next house to us. I was ten years old and longed so much for her to come past our house. I could wait for hours just to see her. Her smile toward me got all my body to react... but I could not reach her she just passed by with a smile. I know what I wanted... but I could not ask for it. But I still know what it felt like of wanting to have someone to love. It was like a buzz in all of my body... but it had no other place to be... but for what I thought about it.
The longing has been reflected within me many times since then... but the pain to go throug... as still remains... has been to scary without feeling its cause. My dad's threat to hit me has been a well-buried reason to deny all of my need for love... to not want to face it. But my memories from the place where I got a smile as ten years old still remains in me.
Frank
Self explanatory as you say Art, so no need for me to add any more other than to say that the above note from your therapist says far more than is contained in most of the books I've ever read. It says even more than I can put into words so I won't even try.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing that with us Art.
Regards
Steve.